I'm gonna fess up and pour my heart out

NewspaperCrane

Well-Known Member
I know you guys can't help me, but I think sharing how miserable and horrible I feel right now will help.
So before I strayed from my mom, who was a fiend. She stole from me and hurt me. She ruined my life and made it so I can never live normally. Out of anger, she cut me with a pair of scissors and called an ambulance; she told them I was crazy. She doesn't care for me at all. An hour ago I was playing tf2 for the first time at my house, happy to be home. My mom marches in the room and starts beating me with a belt because she was drunk or something. I honestly think shes crazy now. She then broke my laptop(I think its broken) and took all of my clothes with her, saying that I wo t have any more than the few I have. I used to have 100s from hard work and jobs over the year and she stole it all. She said Im too stupid to get perfect grades and too fat to fit in clothes. Before I've just been living in my friends or girlfriends house but I just wanted to come back today. This one day. Instantly I fall back to a suicidal mood. I dont know what to do. Theres no safe place. I cant call the police because this story itself is too hard to believe. No one will believe me. The story of the Adopted Kid who gets abuse by his Mom isnt real, but is horribly real at my end. I see no future for me and I don't know where to hide. I've tried confronting my mom but I get smacked instead. My dad wont help. At first I thought hed help, but he is away for too long. And theres no way I can set up any surveillance for evidence because she sits in 1 room 24/7 and comes out to get food. I know suicide or drugs is a bad idea, but itd be easier to not live than do feel pain. I know this story is unbelievable and sharing it wont do much, but it feels good to let it off my shoulders.
Don't ever feel like life isn't worth living, like things aren't going to get better-- they can and will. You're a smart kid, and you can do a lot of things with your life. Being clever as you are will get you far. If you don't feel like you can call the police, Monday morning you should march directly back into your counselor's office and tell them exactly what happened. Tell the truth, and don't be afraid. Hang in there man.
 

FaerieInCombatBoots

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Do not give up. Please, do not give up. I know it's so easy to give in to your despair, but if you do, you're just letting your mom defeat you, letting her win. You gotta stand up and fight. Go to your counselor. If you have bruises or welts, document them. I believe in you, and support you 100%.
 

ChibaMasato

Well-Known Member
Tell your counselor, show them the marks, tell them your story. I can guarantee you'll get the help you need. Talk to them about getting social services involved.

If all else fails, you could always hire me to.... Er... "help with your problem"? ;) You can see this as a giggity comment or something else. All I have to say is this:
I know how to make people disappear.

EDIT: Bitch, you'd better not quit on me. We've got a class-elimination rematch in Tf2 that needs to be settled. <3 Less than three.

SPAH SAPPIN' MAH SENTRY!
 

Camevil

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I know it has been said before but stay strong. Keep talking to your counselor for help and support. Don't forget the people that truely love you and make life worth living. You say you can't goto the police because the story is hard to believe but you would be surprised what people actually do believe. If you have marks, show the cops them. It is really worth a shot trying to get the police to help. I have also suffered depression and I know what you are going through. Although it may not have been as major as what you are going through, I understand completely. Everyone here at t9k supports you and wishes your safety. So please, stay strong.
 

MotorKat

Well-Known Member
Tell your counselor, show them the marks, tell them your story. I can guarantee you'll get the help you need. Talk to them about getting social services involved.

If all else fails, you could always hire me to.... Er... "help with your problem"? ;) You can see this as a giggity comment or something else. All I have to say is this:
I know how to make people disappear.
I just call it a "magic trick"...

David, please don't give up. Life has so much more to offer than the urges to end it. The people who've replied to this thread are here for you; stay strong!
 

Bored

Well-Known Member
Police = To serve and protect. Call them and get her the "help" she needs as she is clearly not being a mother and is actually downright nasty sounding. DO NOT BE AFRAID!!! "Abuse has no excuse" and she needs to see what happens to those who do abuse (honestly with how she is treating ya I hope she sees some jail-time and learns what it is like to be on the other side of abuse.)

Keep your chin up man, and know that you have friends here who see the greatness in you and continue to be strong.
AND DEFINITELY STILL THIS >>>
Regarding suicide -- If the thoughts ever start becoming too real, or too close, call 1-800-273-8255. Any time, anywhere. No questions.

Your friend,
~Bored

P.S. Keep sharing man, it's good to type/talk things out, and we'll always lend a hand or an ear (mumble) if ya ever need to chat.
 

Outlandishh

Active Member
Everybody has a fucked up matter in their life, and nothing is easy. Who said it was going to be? Well, my life is fucked up in a way that is far different from yours. My father was a good man, rough history, but a good dad to me and I was lucky to have him, but he was taken from me. Granted, in my belief, he was taken by God, he was taken. So I lost what was dearest to me. In your case, you were never given it. Which makes me deeply sorry you have to deal with that, and by all means if you ever need to talk to me, I've been at those deep points. I've hurt myself over things. Remember this: You have a lot to live for. You were given a good brain, and you're smart. That in and of itself will open doors for you, you just gotta get to them. If you want my cell number, where I prefer the most personal of conversations, message me privately on here. Like previously mentioned, this is one big dysfunctional family and your my dysfunctional brother. It goes both ways, too. Myself, and nearly everyone on here will be here for you. Stay strong buddy. As for the proof, re-read Casey's comment. He's a smart guy with some good advice.
 

Nordiclovepotion

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David, I don't really talk to you that much, but the few times I have talked to you I see the great feelings you bring with you. I understand how entincing suicide can be (Sounds weird right?) but stop and think. Who do you love? How would they feel? Maybe it's said before but actually sit and think about it. Hard. See from their eyes. Also, what if it doesn't work? It will just make your life even worse. The thing to do is exactly what everyone else is saying and what you're doing. Vent. To anyone who will listen. If you have a friend you can live with, live with them. This works two ways: 1. You are safe with people who actually care about you. 2. If your mother tries anything, like, coming in and being violent. There will be more witnesses and actual proof to have her arrested. Be strong David, you're not the only person who can help you, but it definitely starts with you.

Good luck buddy, you'll make it or so help me I will kidnap you and you can live in my attic.
Your buddy, Nordic (And probably everyone else)
 

Godliberator

Well-Known Member
Regarding suicide -- If the thoughts ever start becoming too real, or too close, call 1-800-273-8255. Any time, anywhere. No questions.

just quoting Woot, to restate his words. Also, always remember that there are so many members of this community who not only care about you but are willing to talk at any time.
 

Marioman543216

Well-Known Member
I know you guys can't help me, but I think sharing how miserable and horrible I feel right now will help.
So before I strayed from my mom, who was a fiend. She stole from me and hurt me. She ruined my life and made it so I can never live normally. Out of anger, she cut me with a pair of scissors and called an ambulance; she told them I was crazy. She doesn't care for me at all. An hour ago I was playing tf2 for the first time at my house, happy to be home. My mom marches in the room and starts beating me with a belt because she was drunk or something. I honestly think shes crazy now. She then broke my laptop(I think its broken) and took all of my clothes with her, saying that I wo t have any more than the few I have. I used to have 100s from hard work and jobs over the year and she stole it all. She said Im too stupid to get perfect grades and too fat to fit in clothes. Before I've just been living in my friends or girlfriends house but I just wanted to come back today. This one day. Instantly I fall back to a suicidal mood. I dont know what to do. Theres no safe place. I cant call the police because this story itself is too hard to believe. No one will believe me. The story of the Adopted Kid who gets abuse by his Mom isnt real, but is horribly real at my end. I see no future for me and I don't know where to hide. I've tried confronting my mom but I get smacked instead. My dad wont help. At first I thought hed help, but he is away for too long. And theres no way I can set up any surveillance for evidence because she sits in 1 room 24/7 and comes out to get food. I know suicide or drugs is a bad idea, but itd be easier to not live than do feel pain. I know this story is unbelievable and sharing it wont do much, but it feels good to let it off my shoulders.
Ok I may have set up a wrong idea here but hope it helps....
if you want to run away Ask a T9k Member like wooty or someone living near you (I hope) Let you stay at their house then you can work at a store and earn money then you could buy an apartment or such. But here is a tip: If your mom ever trys to hurt you.. Defend yourself with Well that part is still looking out on But always talk to a T9k member or a Friend in help.. Like we say... "A Friends a Friend so We help him"
 

CaptainGinyu

Well-Known Member
I know you guys can't help me, but I think sharing how miserable and horrible I feel right now will help.
So before I strayed from my mom, who was a fiend. She stole from me and hurt me. She ruined my life and made it so I can never live normally. Out of anger, she cut me with a pair of scissors and called an ambulance; she told them I was crazy. She doesn't care for me at all. An hour ago I was playing tf2 for the first time at my house, happy to be home. My mom marches in the room and starts beating me with a belt because she was drunk or something. I honestly think shes crazy now. She then broke my laptop(I think its broken) and took all of my clothes with her, saying that I wo t have any more than the few I have. I used to have 100s from hard work and jobs over the year and she stole it all. She said Im too stupid to get perfect grades and too fat to fit in clothes. Before I've just been living in my friends or girlfriends house but I just wanted to come back today. This one day. Instantly I fall back to a suicidal mood. I dont know what to do. Theres no safe place. I cant call the police because this story itself is too hard to believe. No one will believe me. The story of the Adopted Kid who gets abuse by his Mom isnt real, but is horribly real at my end. I see no future for me and I don't know where to hide. I've tried confronting my mom but I get smacked instead. My dad wont help. At first I thought hed help, but he is away for too long. And theres no way I can set up any surveillance for evidence because she sits in 1 room 24/7 and comes out to get food. I know suicide or drugs is a bad idea, but itd be easier to not live than do feel pain. I know this story is unbelievable and sharing it wont do much, but it feels good to let it off my shoulders.
No, you can't just give up! All of us would be devastated without you! David, for the few times I've talked with you (or tried to whisper you in PokeMMO), you've been a really cool guy. I wouldn't know what to do with myself if anything bad happened to you or anyone else here on Team 9000. Because, after all, we have surpassed being a gaming community, we're a family. If I had the chance, I would drag you out of your predicament right now! I also know that others here would do the exact same.

A lot of members here have dished out some pretty helpful advice and resources, and I believe you can get out of this and have a prosperous life ahead of you if you use them. I had a Suicide Prevention assembly at my school recently, and although their website is down at the moment, they have a Facebook page with some other links that may help you: KnowResolve Facebook page.

No matter what happens, we're here for you!
 

Creeper

Well-Known Member
If your mom ever trys to hurt you.. Defend yourself with anger or you can hit her with anything you want or K.O. Her and run away...
Responding violence with violence is a terrible idea. There are other things you can do to solve the problem.
 

Casey

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Im sorry..

Running away is a bad idea, and since he is underage, he would be found and sent back home. The person he runs to would be held responsible for getting him back, and if they didn't then they would get in trouble with the law. While you need to get out of there, running away won't help at this stage. Go talk to your counselors. Show them the marks your mother leaves. If they still don't help, you need to contact the police. People will not just ignore you, and the police can not just ignore accusations about child abuse. Keep at it, stay strong, and persevere. I promise things will eventually get better. It may not be now, it may be a few weeks, months, or even years, but as for the abuse, that needs to stop now.

Also, just to rephrase again, if you are having ANY thoughts about suicide, don't think about it, just call 1-800-273-8255. Those are trained professionals who deal with kids that have problems just like yours. If anyone can help you with your problems, its them.
 

Squeebz

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Find your local toll free number

Despite your concerns, alleged child abuse whether it be physical, sexual, or mental is taken very seriously and should never be ignored. I highly suggest you find your number in that directory and make the report yourself. Letting any abuse continue will only prove to hurt you worse, physically and mentally. If you feel you cannot make that call safely from home, don't risk it, call as soon as you safely get the chance to do so. CPS takes every call seriously and the Police do as well. If you express your concerns to authorities vehemently, they will not ignore you.
 

Sasquatch_Legend

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David,

Although I do not know you very well, I had happened to stumble upon this thread. I am extremely sorry for you. I really do hope that things turn in your tide soon enough, as I feel that no human being should be going through what you are experiencing right now.

Best and sincerest wishes,
Sas
 
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