I'm in a really awkward and horrible situation.
So, a few months ago, I decided by myself that I no longer believed in God, nor any deity for that matter. I kept it to myself because of my family's strict religion traditions,until now. Today, I told my parents about it.
Both of them were nearly in tears.
I felt really bad seeing my own mom cry, and my dad have such a disappointed look on his face. When I said what I did, I didn't think that it would have such an effect on the family, and they'd be more understanding. Apparently not.
I really don't know what to do in this situation, and I need some guidance and help to get through this.
I'm glad that you are making your beliefs your own. It's a sign of honesty in that you are refusing to be something that you believe you are not. It shows that you are searching for the truth.
In the words of Socrates, "Know thyself." This is the best way to figure out what you believe and most importantly,
why you believe what you believe. Ask yourself this very important question,"Why do I not believe in a god?" It's surprising how much the subconscious mind can actually control what someone may end up believing. Look for your heart's answer, not the reflexive response that your brain will tell you for assurance.
For lack of a better phrase, "coming out of the closet" can be a very tough ordeal. People close to you may be shocked, disappointed, or even angry at you because of your beliefs. When they see the true you rather than the fake one, it can shake them up a little.
I think your parents are trying to understand, but the shock of the matter is leaving them in tears. Give them a little time to recover, then have a long talk with them about it. Good parents will listen to what you have to say and try to see things from your point of view. Let them ask you questions, even the hard ones. And yes, even the ones you can't bear to answer, because they will come.
Just think really hard about your beliefs. Meditate on them when you wake up and when you lie in bed. Let it sink in. If you want, consider talking to a counselor that belongs to the religion you were once a part of. He will help you dig deeper into why you believe what you believe. Better yet, just talk to your friends about it. If they are good friends, they will be sincere with their speech and try to guide you down the path they believe is right.
Personally, as a Christian, I pray that you will deeply ponder the thoughts of your heart and find the truth. You may not believe in God, but I believe God is still there, waiting comfortingly for your reply. Just remember that tomorrow is never guaranteed, and time is short. Are you ready to bet your life on what you believe?